During this entire divorce process, I have admittedly let myself go a bit. I don’t care for my appearance as much as I did before, and I don’t put on makeup, fix my hair, or do my nails like I once did. My soon to be ex-husband and I are still residing in the same house, and I have to say that the stress is unbelievable. At the end of the day, I am so exhausted by the thought that I am living with someone who doesn’t love me as much as I love them, that I fall into bed, grateful that another day has passed. This morning, I decided to do my nails. Before all this started, I had gotten into doing a bit of nail art here and there. I am letting my nails grow, and with this growth process, it makes me want to fix myself up a bit.
At this point, you might be asking yourself, “How does all of this equate to being a Christian woman, involved in a divorce?” Please allow me to explain. Although you might find yourself in a situation that you never imagined for yourself (I certainly do), it’s okay to take a few minutes (or hours, in my case) to do something for yourself to make you feel a little better. At this point, my children still do not know that we are divorcing. We are waiting until I have found a job, and the money to get my own place, before we drop this bit of news on their heads, changing their world forever. The stress from keeping this information close to the vest is unreal. You might be in the same position- after all, your world is going to change, too. But that doesn’t mean that you shouldn’t care for yourself just a bit. In my case, looking down at my nails, and seeing just that little pop of color in my grey world, does indeed help. It makes me feel like a woman again, instead of a failure at marriage. It makes me feel pretty, if even only in my eyes. Although God does throw challenges our way, and this is most certainly a challenge, He doesn’t want us to forget ourselves. It’s okay to treat yourself here and there. So, go ahead. Go fix your hair, put on some makeup, and do your nails. You will be surprised at how much it will perk your spirits in an otherwise dark world. Besides that, look around. Spring is around the corner, and that means a rebirth of sorts. Let the scent of new flowers, new grass, and green bits starting on the trees invade your soul. Let this rebirth in spring, and those prettily painted nails invade your soul like it has mine.